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it was over two weeks ago when you told me you felt
you had no control. it was two days ago when i asked
how far you went with her, and you said that you wore a
condom. it was two hours ago when i bought a
hat to smother all these thoughts ― all the images of
you bearing down on someone that is not me, your brown
shoulders like mountains in the dusky light that i knew,
that i knew was coming through the window you constantly
tried to hide behind sheets.
this is when i grow vengeful. this is when i wonder why i
hurt when this could be should be is totally my fault.
this is when all language escapes me, when there is
nothing left i can portray but through the tilt of my eyelashes
and how hard i clench my teeth that you never were
perceptive enough to read. this, this is when i consider
entering houses at night to rearrange the furniture so that
people can understand how fragile things are, when i
fall to my knees at the image of charlie manson. this is when
i stop crying to all the painful things like the twin towers and
the raised voices of mommy and daddy and the dead cat
in the middle of the road.
i can pull this off, i think, i can cease to miss thee. and the
gyrating of the air against my back, ripping at my clothing
like a desperate rapist and sinking its teeth into my bones,
i feel not. this is nothing like what they taught in elementary
school ― little johnny did not hit you because he liked you,
but because he had a subconscious grudge against women
from when his mother locked him away in the closet for three
hours. he could sense the budding breasts locked away
tight against your sternum, the hidden hourglass figure that
would make him turn you on your head. little johnny hit
you because he had learned the vicious cycle and he got
busy teaching you.
you had no control. it was two days ago when i asked
how far you went with her, and you said that you wore a
condom. it was two hours ago when i bought a
hat to smother all these thoughts ― all the images of
you bearing down on someone that is not me, your brown
shoulders like mountains in the dusky light that i knew,
that i knew was coming through the window you constantly
tried to hide behind sheets.
this is when i grow vengeful. this is when i wonder why i
hurt when this could be should be is totally my fault.
this is when all language escapes me, when there is
nothing left i can portray but through the tilt of my eyelashes
and how hard i clench my teeth that you never were
perceptive enough to read. this, this is when i consider
entering houses at night to rearrange the furniture so that
people can understand how fragile things are, when i
fall to my knees at the image of charlie manson. this is when
i stop crying to all the painful things like the twin towers and
the raised voices of mommy and daddy and the dead cat
in the middle of the road.
i can pull this off, i think, i can cease to miss thee. and the
gyrating of the air against my back, ripping at my clothing
like a desperate rapist and sinking its teeth into my bones,
i feel not. this is nothing like what they taught in elementary
school ― little johnny did not hit you because he liked you,
but because he had a subconscious grudge against women
from when his mother locked him away in the closet for three
hours. he could sense the budding breasts locked away
tight against your sternum, the hidden hourglass figure that
would make him turn you on your head. little johnny hit
you because he had learned the vicious cycle and he got
busy teaching you.
Literature
It's everything...
I've found a spot where the floor creaks just for me.
I sit & wait there
for the boards to collapse,
for my unannounced visit
to the neighbors.
I sit & wait
at lights, and in lines,
and in conversations
that go in circles.
I sit & wait for the music to end,
just so that I can go home.
I keep quiet as the world sleeps;
afraid to wake someone up,
afraid to sleep alone.
I've built a routine
dependent on falling apart
and still somehow manage
to be surprised
by every last bitter goodbye,
by every last haunting regret,
by every last
last word.
Literature
dear midnight
my earthy mattress tickles my neck
as i lay down to stare at my love,
but i am not looking over;
i am looking up.
power lines scar her stellar
dark-blue face, and city lights
pollute her skin like a thousand
spotlights on an over-powdered model.
but i am not concerned about
her blemishes; no, tonight i am here
to find flawlessness beneath
the flaws.
and so i gaze
the stars are the freckles
on heaven's nose, and the clouds
the hair of Venus herself.
i reach up to try to sift my fingers
through her wispy white locks,
but find she is too far away.
a single star drifts across the dark
cheeks of the night, and i fear
sh
Literature
322010.
i want to be a cigarette.
because every time your hands stumble across one, you wrap your fingers tightly around it. your eyes show a sense of salvation, a sense of oh-God,-i've-wanted-you-for-so-long. with a flick of your fingers, it lights up a smile as bright as the sun.
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you know what!
i adore you
& oh how this brightens my day
i adore you
& oh how this brightens my day